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6 Months Today …
June 11, 2015, 6:15 am
Filed under: Daddyhood, Otis

… my son was born.

Six months.

In some ways that is no time at all and yet in other ways, it seems like I can’t remember a time without him in my life.

To say becoming a father has been a revelation to me is an understatement.

I’ve written about this before, but it blows my mind how much I love being Otis’ Dad.

I always thought the fun would begin when he could talk and waddle along but I was wrong.

In some ways, I would love to keep him as he is right now.

Not because he has to go wherever I want to go.

Nor because he has to watch whatever I want to watch.

And it’s certainly not because I have an obsession with changing nappies.

It’s because I recognise this as a very special and precious time in his development.

You see right now, the majority of his development – poor bugger – is coming from us.

I get to see, in real time, how he is learning. Or what he has yet to learn.

Watching him realise those things at the end of his arms can do stuff is amazing – even if it means I get smacked in the face by them 10,000 times a day.

And watching him look at himself in the mirror and not realise it’s him, even though he sees – and recognises – his Daddy is wonderful.

It’s also a bit disturbing [I hope he doesn’t turn into a thicko] but it’s wonderful just the same.

Then there’s listening to him make sounds.

Not the ones where it’s a tsunami of shit entering his nappy, I mean the ones where he is trying to communicate with us.

I knew I would love that, but I never realised how much.

Seeing my son literally see and experience things for the very first time is a privilege I never truly appreciated until it started happening and now I never want it to end … which is another reason why I’d love to keep him as he is, even though I know at every stage his of development, I’ll be wishing he stayed just like that too.

But nothing – and I mean nothing – beats the feeling of sheer joy I get when he wakes up.

Apart from the fact he is a happy baby [he obviously takes after his Mum in that regard] when he sees me, he literally shakes like a mad man, excited to see me.

How do I know he’s excited?

Because he always has a massive smile on his face.

It is single-handedly the most beautiful, wonderful, magical feeling I’ve ever had.

That’s not to demean the countless other beautiful, wonderful, magical feelings I’ve had … but this is something else.

A few weeks ago, I came home very late and he was fast asleep.

I leant over him and said “goodnight little Oty”, to which his big, beautiful eyes immediately slammed open.

There he was, lying on his back, looking straight up at me. No blinking. Just staring.

There was a slight pause before his legs and arms started shaking up and down, left and right while making a bunch of weird – but delightfully cute – sounds while giving me a massive smile before he then reached out with his little hand and starting feeling my face.

How I didn’t burst into tears at that moment, I’ll never know – but it was a moment that will stay with me for the rest of my life.

Literally for the rest of my life.

Of course I know one day all this will stop – both because of his development and that he’ll go through a phase where he thinks his Dad is a stupid pain-in-the-ass – and that will make me very sad indeed … but even if I only received this single moment of happiness from him each day, I’d still say having him has been better than I ever imagined, so when you take into account all the other stuff he gives me, it’s no surprise I am so happy he’s here and why I am so proud to be his Dad.

So happy 6th month birthday my little Otis, you’re a wonderful, wonderful boy but please don’t grow up too fast, it’s already happening far too quickly for my liking.

Love you.

Daddy xxx

Otis hugging his Nonna

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One day he will realise how lucky he is to have you as his dad. I will now prepare to spend my evening stopping my daughters from seeing this post as it will only encourage them to question why I did not write something similar about them.

Comment by George

Too late.

Comment by Mary Bryant

This has made me extra-happy. Thanks Mary.
[Sorry George]

Comment by Rob

how the fuck did you manage to produce such a sweet little chappie campbell? oh i know, jill. youre right george, otis is very fucking lucky he got his mums genes more than his dads.

Comment by andy@cynic

Yep. It’s like he’s won the lottery really, isn’t it.

Comment by Rob

that last photo is fucking good. mrs c would be chuffed to fucking bits.

Comment by andy@cynic

She wouldn’t approve of the tattoo, but yeah – she’d be very happy with the photo.

Comment by Rob

Love this

Comment by Northern

What are you doing up at this time??? Are you mad???

Comment by Rob

PHD 25th anniversary, two words was all I could manage.
Was good to have an outlet and have some fun in current times .
And you know I’m mad
Anyway, he’s a lovely boy. I know what you mean about moments, my little boy saw his mother crying the other day, put his arm around her and said “It’s OK Mummy”.
Will never forget it

Comment by northern

This is adorable Robbie. I knew you’d be the best daddy and Otis is gorgeous. Big kisses to all of you and extra ones to Otis. I hope I get to meet him soon.

Jemma xxx

Comment by Jemma King

Hello lovely, so nice to hear from you. I hope you get to meet him soon, but you have to promise not to try and steal him. I know what you’re like with small, cute things … even if normally it’s some overpriced handbag.

Comment by Rob

What Andy said. Nice words Rob.

Comment by Bazza

This makes me so happy Robert. You have written such beautiful words. What a lovely family you are. Come and visit soon. I need to hold your fantastic son.

Comment by Mary Bryant

Thank you Mary. He’s basically changed my life … and I don’t just mean my sleeping habits. Hope we see you soon, I’d love him to meet you and vice versa.

Comment by Rob

Otis will be proud Robert. Your mother prouder still.

Comment by Lee Hill

That would make me very happy Lee. Thank you.

Comment by Rob

When do all the parents on here have a fight about who has the most advanced kid? I’d buy a front row ticket for that.

Comment by Billy Whizz

No point because we all know Mary would win.

Comment by DH

Top post.

Comment by John

Just as you’ve got this memory with Otis….Every child should be so lucky to have a dad that has a blog, for when they get older. Dad’s can sometimes be tricky to understand, but their love is profound.

Comment by Mollie Isabela Hill

Despite everything, this is nice. Otis might end up being OK.

Comment by DH

What a beautiful and touching post. Otis is so lucky to have a dad like you.

Comment by Naoko

He is beautiful. I want to give you both a big hug. I’m so proud of you Roberto.

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