I am a walking contradiction.
I love new adventures but I’m hugely sentimental.
I look for ways to keep edging myself forward – at least emotionally – but fight like a bastard to maintain the things of my past that mean so much to me
It’s a constant challenge because things are in a state of constant change.
Sure, I can control – or at least delude myself I can control – what I have in my life, however the fact is I have no power whatsoever over the situations, opportunities and choices that the people I care about get exposed to … which means I have no control – just hope – for what my life will be in the next 24 hours.
And that’s when you learn life is based on one key question: What are you willing to commit to and what are you not.
So many of us walk around thinking the World revolves around us … that nothing will change unless we choose for it too … and all we are doing is setting ourselves up for disappointment.
More confronting is that even when you do fight for stability, it can only happen if the situation you’re hoping to maintain wants it to.
It doesn’t matter if it’s a person, a job, a band or an exhibition … the things we hold dear are always at the point of fracture, which is why making a commitment to the relationship, whatever that might be and whatever that might take, is everything.
Now you might question this.
You might say, “But Rob, don’t you know absence makes the heart grow fonder?”
And to you, I’d say it must be bloody wonderful to live on your planet because the truth is, without actively nurturing, absence doesn’t make the heart grow fonder, it makes the absence much easier.
To rub salt in the wounds, you only find this out when it’s too late.
When what was so important has gone.
And you might think you can get over it, but you can’t … you just get better with coping with the loss.
But you still feel it.
You still feel the sharp pain every time you remember … and it stings more, because you know you brought this on yourself the moment you thought nothing would change unless you wanted it too.
What am I going on about?
I suppose it’s simply to say that while it’s exciting to explore and experience the fresh, new, interesting and unique … we should never take the important things for granted – the things that lift your spirits and stir your soul – because life is always in beta and to move truly ahead, the key is to commit to your present and don’t turn your back on your past.
